I had an interview yesterday for a position with a private, bilingual school in Paris. I think the interview went well, the woman I interviewed with seemed to like me and my ideas for the class. The school has a really exciting education philosophy and I think it would be a really inspiring and very challenging environment to work in. They would expect a lot out of me. Big problem: they won't sponsor me for a visa. The first thing she wanted to talk about was my visa situation and she said right off the bat that they've sponsored visas for other employees before and it is too much of a hassle and they don't do that anymore.
My only visa option then would be to get a student visa (or get married to a French guy, but that is not happening). I just don't know how much I want to enroll in a program, probably a masters program, and have the hassle of going to classes and writing a thesis just to stay in Paris for another year and have a really challenging job. If I could get a student visa just to take one or two classes, I would do it, but I don't know if that's possible.
The other problem is that I still haven't told my parents that I've been trying to get a job to stay in France for another year, and now that it's getting close to the time that they think I'm coming home for good my mom keeps telling me how excited she is that I'm finally coming home. I just don't know if I can break my mom's heart when she has only been wonderful and supportive to me my whole life (well, except when I was 16 and got my driver's licence and wasn't legally allowed to drive between midnight and 5 AM, but everyone did anyway, but she wouldn't let me. That was frustrating). I was expressing this worry to a coworker who I trust, and even though she's a mom herself (!) she said that I should still think about myself first, or I could end up resentful of my mom. I can't really imagine that I would ever resent my mom for anything (cue shmaltzy music and montage of me and mom photos) but I understand what she was trying to say.
I'm not sure what to do. I'm sad to think about about going home for good, but I'm also sad when I think about how upset my mom - well, both of my parents - will be.