The food situation is still pretty dire around here. My choices at this point are
1) Make my tummy very unhappy by eating only protein and veggies, but keep my glucose lower
2) Drive my glucose through the roof by eating a very small amount of carbs (like two pieces of whole grain, low carb bread) throughout the day
It's not a secret that I like food - who doesn't, right? And don't I deserve to be able to eat whatever the hell I want when I'm going through all the rest of this crap? It's the only vice left open to me since drinking and men aren't really happening right now. Why, steroids, why do you mess with my glucose processing?! *shakes fist at the evil lord of steroids* From the minute I get up until the minute I go to bed I'm consumed with trying to figure out what I can eat, when I can eat it, how many carbs are in it, will that fill me up, will it upset my stomach, how much more weight have I lost etc etc etc.... It's very frustrating. I think that for simple self preservation I'm going to have to allow the docs to put me on insulin tomorrow because I am going insane. So I just need a break from thinking and talking about food all the time. When I can eat again we can discuss more of my favorite things to eat.
In other health news, I had an infusion of a drug called mylotarg on Friday. Mylotarg is a very targeted type of therapy that we're using to "mop up" the cancer cells that didn't get killed by the heavy duty chemo I had before my transplant. Chemotherapy doesn't always kill every little cancer cell, which is why cancer can come back, hence my need for more treatments. It was fine. I was a little extra tired this weekend but that was all.
I saw two very cute movies this week. The first one was My Life in Ruins starring Nia Vardalos. Remember her from My Big Fat Greek Wedding? She looked amazing in this film, btw. She's a tour guide in Greece but actually wants to be a big classics professor at a university. The movie is about the crazy time she has with this one particular tour group who chase help her find her inner spirit (they use some Greek word that I forgot). Anyone who has traveled will find a lot to laugh at because we've all seen these types and know how easily things can go wrong when you travel. There's some romance too, of course, but that takes a backseat to the story of this group of people who were randomly thrown together. I enjoyed this one a lot. It's just a fun movie.
On Friday I saw All About Steve, and honestly I didn't think I was going to like it at all from the previews I had seen on TV, but it was actually a really nice movie. Sandra Bullock does a great job playing Mary, a super smart but socially inept crossword puzzle creator who ends up chasing a blind date across the country because she thinks he's her soul mate. This is not a typical romantic comedy, however, because there isn't a romance. The message of the movie is about fitting in vs being yourself, "normality," and finding people who allow you to be your crazy self. Mary is a really great character and Sandra Bullock is of course wonderful. I definitely recommend this one. It's unfortunate that they didn't market it correctly.