I really miss speaking French all the time. Every day that I speak French and understand spoken French is a victory. I'm really proud of the fact that I learned another language and am relatively fluent in it. One of the reasons I want to go back to France is so that I don't forget all the French I've learned, and to continue learning and improving. Of course that is something that will always be true; whenever I leave France for good I will risk losing all the French I've worked so hard to acquire.
I was very excited to find that there is a French conversation group that meets every week here in Ann Arbor. I went tonight for the first time, and wow, it was so great to speak French again! I was a little rusty after not speaking it at all for two weeks, but after about 20 minutes I felt en forme. In general I don't like speaking French with other anglophones because I think you pick up bad habits and bad accents, but beggars cannot be choosers, and as it turns out most people have a pretty good French level, two of the girls have very good accents, and one of the guys is actually French. It works for now, but in the long run, it's a poor substitute for speaking French all day, every day.
I really hope I get to go back to France, but I know that the chances of that are pretty much 0. I am reevaluating my initial opposition to going back as a student. We'll see. Otherwise I can try to get internships in the summer.